June 6, 2003 One year ago today I stepped through the doors of the Weight Watchers Center. I was so
scared to try, but I was so scared not to try. I was winded just walking through one wing of the mall. I had eaten myself
sick. I knew that I had to do something...anything...to be healthier, so I tried WW.
I cried the first time I had the courage to step on the scale. After one week OP, I lost 4.6 lbs. I cried when I stepped
on the scale and had actually lost weight! I was amazed that it worked and very scared to keep trying, but I knew that I had
to keep trying. Throughout the summer, I learned to eat healthy. I learned that I could limit myself to just a Happy Meal
from McDonalds and be satisfied. I learned that I really like Baked Doritos. I learned to measure my food, especially cereal,
and I got more in a serving.
In late August, I began struggling. I was frustrated being OP. My periods had become so much more intense and my emotions
seemed out of control. I didn't want to binge! I refused to go back. I e-mailed
DarleneElizabeth and
CindyStarr for encouragement. They met me head on and challenged me to keep going! I am so grateful for that support. I became very
active on
this message board. I got to know Mom2Mitzi and CindyStarr really well. I really enjoy their company and they are so supportive.
I pressed on through September and October while still playing with the same 5 lbs....trying so hard to get my 25 lb
magnet and then my 10%. It seemed like I was at a standstill and I had been more OP than ever!!!!
Finally, on November 26, 2002, I got my 10% keychain for losing 35 lbs. At this point, I'm convinced that I can do this!
I can make it through the holidays without binging...and I did!!!
In January, I began exercising! Since then, the pounds have seemed to come off so much easier. I also began a journal
exchange with Sharon-PA, sjg314, and PineMountainLady. They have become my closest friends, confidantes, and we together are
the Fearsome Foursome! We're not giving up and we're not letting each other give up!!!!!
I began my journey in size 30 pants from Catherines. A couple of weeks ago, I wore size 22 pants. I
climbed 53 steps in Meramec Caverns to see the cluster formations. I am playing softball again! I
have my life back!
I haven't lost as quickly as some, but I am losing. And more importantly, I'm living a healthy life!
I am prolonging my life by becoming healthier.
Many people have told me that they were inspired to start WW because of me. That just blows me away. I don't feel like
I've done anything too special. I've just pressed on and not given up! And I'm not giving up! Never!!! I
will remain in this healthy lifestyle for the rest of my life.
